English Poem by Gurushree Vidushii

The being is what is true
Understood but by a few
What lies within is what is
Outside lies a deep abyss

Child of the great Mystic
Soul of the Mighty Sun God
Rise above mundane existence
And hold the brilliant light of Lord
O holy soul do not let the world drown you
Realise that you are His very essence
Grasp that golden thread you let go of
O Divine soul hold on to just nothing
And let nothing hold on to you too
For you are the free spirit that always was
And in eternity shall you always remain
Your Lord is dressed in all His Resplendence
May His Glory always flow in every breath

Leaving the confines of this ego
When i wander in the heartlane
I feel a huge expansion of myself
Beyond explanation of loss & gain
Its me or not me i do not know
All i know is that great vastness
Which flesh nor mind cannot be
It is an overwhelming Grandness

You play tricks my Father
I know that now
Your truth can be felt
But stated in words, how?
You turn one into many
And then many into one
Your maya is so strong
The human is on a run
Across the three worlds
You keep pulling strings
The universe in your mind
Time in your twelve lings
How will i ever cross
This ocean of life
Have mercy on this child
And dissolve all strife
O Merciful Father
King of Kashi
O Kailashnivasi
O brilliant Sun
Get me across
And ferry my soul
Here i am
Waiting to be held
Take me home

The world as I see it
Is a little earth and space
Objects strewn here & there
Each being at its own pace
A bit of the body and THE mind
That just keep adding to the days
But in this entire hippodrome
The self keeps seeking solace

Treat others as living beings
If you treat yourself as one
Be just with both words and deeds
For you are sowing karmic seeds
What you sow you will reap
And life after all is not so cheap
Write your destiny with some care
For in the karmic records its all bare
Cause someone anguish and pain
And your life will end up in vain
O man! Do not create more hells
For in each soul thy Lord only dwells

The door to joy was within her
But she gave the keys to the other
Promises broke & meanings changed
And she lost her place to another
The pain could not be measured
And no moments left to be treasured
Two forms going different ways
It was just a matter of some days
That night she did not go to sleep
Even her body felt like a prison
She was just a living marrow then
And knew dead never come alive again
She finally gave up on figuring herself
And just then she heard a voice
It said to her “you are naive”
“You do not resemble just anyone “
“This life is your path, your beehive”
The call of God changed her journey
She no longer traveled through her body
Her prayers now twinkle with the stars
Her suppressed anger now ignites Mars
(Even when you are not, the Presence will
O lovely woman! do nothing, but stay still)

Kept on rolling back n forth with emotion & force
Only to realise at last the center was the Source
Whoever said suffering makes you go numb
Forgot to tell that was the only way to Freedom

My dear Mother
The source of life
The cause of time
Look at your own feet
My soul rests there
My breaths call out
I look for you everywhere
In all the directions
Within me and even outside
Its time you broke the shackles
Of your own created Maya
And took me back home
In your very arms so loving
Liberate me My Mother
And take me to that Black Space
That is your Loving Abode

I could’ve reached the mount
Had you not pulled me down
Had I fallen on my own
I wouldn’t have had the frown
But you knew what was what
And still you chose this way
Who knows the sides will turn
For every being has his day
Tomorrow I may hurt you
And give you immense pain
Pain that shall unnerve you
Till you’re filled with disdain
Don’t forget the wheel moves
The day and night both are true
This birth you’re born a man
Next birth you’ll be the woman IN LIEU

The Universe is permeated with you my Lord
Dissolve all duality and rise within us like the Sun
ParamShiva this body and being of mine yearns
To merge into your unlimited consciousness

Its called the kumbh
They say its the pot of immortality
I call it the pot of infinite consciousness
brimming with the elixir of existence
If the eye is focused on the rivers
You notice not the bank nor the bridges
Seeking the moon within me
I forgot about the moon outside ( Maghi Purnima)
My soul seemed to be renewing every moment
Shedding the debt of my body and mind
Ascending towards the peace that nature brings
I looked at my worldly clothes and my naked self
And then in the middle of that busy bazaar of sorts
I looked for a glimpse of that Nameless Self
But all I got were definitions and identities
So I looked at Ma Ganga Yamuna and Saraswati
Prayed to be freed from the entanglement of life
Sought refuge in the serenity of the Holy waters
And kept treading on the expanse of that Divinity

For years I lived in the illusion
that the world around was true
the truth was right in front
and yet i let so many years accrue
Now it seems the time has come
to sit alone with a cup of brew
and ask myself if i was foolish
or my eyes were covered in dew
Time gave an indication each time
but i kept hoping for something new
it was though the same old bargain
moments left now seemed too few
Its now or never the inner voice said
you lose something to gain in lieu
whatever time i lived i loved truly
what others did is their purview
I can’t care to stop any more
For there are reasons galore
I came here to make it all sweet
Its fine if i have to leave it sour
I don’t need no name no support
for you i don’t exist anymore
make the mistake of turning around
this time you would see me no more

He asked the truth behind nirvana
If it’s when the soul does not exist
Could I be capable of cleaning the mist
And make him understand the atman
And all about the great law of karma
The cause and effect or about dharma
That good and evil keep playing together
Once it’s this one and then the other
That good in some life will be rewarded
And some karma be spent and discarded
How do you put consciousness into words
And explain birth and death the two swords
How you embody a soul in varying degrees
And become a human or a dog or the bees
Of What happens to the body when it dies
And then why all the surrounding worldly ties
Of when we are bound and when liberated
And how to cross those layers that are gated
Of the necessity for the larger truth and trust
When ephemeral it is all and will gather dust
Finally all I said is ” God’s will be the final One”
That was all he wanted to hear and we were done

It’s about living a meaningful life
Doesn’t matter what’s the strife
When you want around you luxuries
And realise one day the necessities
When life isn’t all about success
When at the cost come peace and love
You know the colors will fade soon
And you still want that bright lit moon
You gather yourself all over again
And get ready to lose for the real gain

When I saw him for the first time
My heart skipped a breath or two

Our eyes got locked into each other
Guess we both felt our hearts would too

Who would approach whom was about it
And the other one’s face was going to be lit

Did it happen the way it was meant to
No it played along and long bent too

But what’s written along does happen
No matter how much time or tide dampen

Rest as they say is history
But still alive is our mystery

When feelings are suppressed too long
When silence roars and tears make you strong
When all around you are faces that seem shallow
Look towards thy Lord where you truly belong

The night sky would often talk to her
The darkness would show the Reality
The stars would twinkle now and then
And add glamour to the lower reality
She knew that darkness was for Real
The stars only to mislead and distract
The moon to see what was not a fact
And she set upon signing a pact
Till she would keep her eyes open
She would be like the twinkling star
Bright and dim, go with the weather
And stick to the canvas it belonged to
But when she would close her eyes
She would be the darkest ever alley
Leading herself to the source of it
The Source she calls her Father her Lord!

My heart pines for you
For an eternal communion
Where you and I are one
Irrespective of all opinion

My soul rose that night
I could no longer sleep
A solitary tune i heard
Something stirred deep

It was no more a dream
I could touch the star
With my eyes closed
I could look real far

I vividly recall that light
The sky and the flame
To my soul’s delight
I no more had a name

Never again does it get the same ever again
When Lord gives you a boon and you turn it a bane
When for long you struggle to remain sane
But the more you try the more you go insane
And one fine day life draws it’s final curtain
And you depart with no loss or gain
Only if you knew it was a play of joy and pain
And you were a mere toy in the larger game
Look no further for all come to that one Same
Relax oh soul you have no ties just a body a name