Where is GOD?

For generations, we have believed there is a God above us who is watching us all. And for generations, the belief has kept us within the limits of such conditioning. The nurturing, the growth stops the moment we as children are told to worship that God who is more powerful, benevolent and who runs our life and if we pray to Him, all things are right. But till the time one experiences that Divine radiance, all beliefs are in vain for until we see or hear or feel from our basic senses, we cannot believe. Yet this is one concept we go on believing all our life without getting close to the truth.  And obvious that if we believe something with our five senses, we see Him as an object when we are the objects in His subjectivity. By His I do not mean a He but the param purush or His Param Prakash around which we all revolve as the prakriti.

So how does His prakriti find Him when it is because of Him? He who is within, outside, everywhere, of whom we are a part, is the Bigger Whole, the Complete One. With our limitlessness, how can we know the source that is the very nature of my being? The body stops functioning but the mind keeps functioning and you are alive. The mind stops functioning but you are alive for you are still breathing. What name do we give to that Prana Shaktithat is not just the oxygen or air we breathe? And yogis are known to have lived without food, water, ceasing their breath for long hours.

The whole concept of ritualistic worship seems difficult to understand where we go on worshipping Him who does not exist outside and how do you worship Him who is within. The very word “search” is misleading because the moment you say search, you look outside, a physical dimension. Since when is Atman or Brahman visible to the physical eye? Even when meditating or chanting to invoke, we have a goal of seeking Him. How do you seek what lies within, so the word “seeker “ is also wrong?

The central letter of the word God is also an “O”, the shunya and the wholeness. It is only achieved when our own centre is merged into Him, when we become cantered, focused within. And once we start melting and dissolving into Him, the peripheries, boundaries and limitations disappear and in that silence, all is bliss. The word Aum also sounds like that “O” OM. This letter O is also symbolic of a life coming complete from start till the end, from birth to death without showing the start or the end point and whatever you can find, you can only find within, not without or out.

Lot of people try to find this space within by going without the people, the world. They choose the jungles, the Himalayas. But it’s fun enjoying that space in this mad jungle called life that is right here, this polarity of life and death can only be lived here just the way we experience with every breath we take and leave out.  God and us are just related the way we breathe in and breathe out. Hence the emphasis on breath that is the only connection to that One within, through the prana.

Om Shanti Shanti Shanti!

AUM

Gurushree Vidushii